I am...

This... thing. It scares the hell out of me. It scares me because I feel stupid. And I don't like feeling like a stupid person. I am NOT a stupid person. "Stupid" is pushing my comfort zone. It... scares me. It scares me like CRAP.


It was... spontaneous. It was abrupt.
at first I liked the straight-forwardness.
But the aftershock was overwhelming.
and now I'm just confused and everything is too fast.
Am I still in control? Yes... Yes, I am.
It's was abrupt and... scary.
But I'm in control... I am, I am, I am...
I am not okay...
I am confused... and this... thing is scaring the SHIT out of me.

ARGHHHH

(( This was supposed to be fucking easy ))