Ba-da ba ba-da ba ba da

Ba-da ba ba-da ba ba da

HERE WE GO AGAIN


Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To BURY THE CASTLE, BURY THE CASTLE

Can't help it
Girl can't help it

*bow*

>.<

It's times like these when I wish I had a bad bad bad habit that I could turn to...

Don't Ask

Haii...

I'm done with the articles, explanation of evidence nlng
or some crap like that.

Can't concentrate for some fucking reason.

Tsk. nde nga nmn niya obligasyon yun, dba?

Enlightened but strangely lonely.
Hindi talaga ganun 'yon. Ganun talaga yon. Labo.

Back to normal. Back to normal. Back to normal.

Ayan na ang pader. Here comes the wall.

Chosen few. Chosen few. Chosen few. I chose none.

20+ days without God. Konek? Wala. Wala naman.

That giant fucking wall. Stupid fucking wall of shit.
Wala. Wala lang. Tanga.

Wag na sana matibag. Don't let it crumble. Don't. DON'T.

Hindi rin niya obligasyon yun. Hindi koh rin naman- Pero- Wala.

I like that wall. That dumb fucking wall. Don't let it-
Enlightened. Wag na lang talaga. Bakit ba?

Delegation? Funny word. Inappropriate. I'll use it anyway. Do it anyway.

Category A. Category B. Category B, population: 0. Weh, EMO.
Population: 2. Ayan.

Hindi naman kailangan yun. Keep it up. Keep smiling. Keep smiling, you dumb fuck.
Kalimutan? Whatever.

Eye-opening stuff right there.

Aanhin koh ba yun? Wait. Nde nmn un ung pnaguusapan, eh. LABO.

Acts of man nga naman. Oh well.

Enlightened. Hindi lahat para dun.
Mabuti pa wala na lang. Para sure. Yuck, emo. May 2 nga dba?

Hayy. Better. Much much better.

Enlightened. Yes. Very.
Lonely. Yes. But what the fuck. Meh.

Off to do homework. Goodluck. If you read this, don't ask.

No, of course it doesn't make any sense

Poetic, though, huh? Not really? Meh.

Don't Leave Home Without Karla

Nabbed from KAYE
Maybe I'll transfer this to FB later.
http://thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi

Put your name in, and generate slogan after each question.


1. What do you say to yourself every morning?
= Do You have the Karla inside. [No duh, I'm Karla]

2. What do you want other people say about you?
= Leave the Karla to us. [HOLY CRAP! KIDNAAAPPPEEEERRRSSS]

3. Someone asked you out, your answer is...
= Nothing acts faster than Karla. [I dunno what to make of this. O_o]

4. How would you answer a booty call?
= I am Stuck on Karla, 'Cause Karla's Stuck on Me. [ADFSGAFSDFD]

5. How would you introduce yourself to someone you really like?
= Come to Karla, and Let's Get It Done. [?!?!?! HAHAHAhAHAHAH]

6. To someone you dislike?
= Karla is so Bracing [Aaight?!;p]

7. You're in a conversation and you suddenly feel the need to pee, how would you excuse yourself?
= The Ultimate Karla Machine. [O_o Karla *Urinating* Machine??]

8. Your parents ask you why you got home late, you say...
= Get Busy with the Karla. [Busy poh akoh, eh... with...uhhh... schoolwork. Yes.]

9. You're failing a subject, you say...
= You Can Be Sure of Karla. [Cgurado na daw babagsak]

10. The love of your life asks you to marry him/her, what do you say?
- Try Karla, You'll Like It. [HAHAhAhahahAHHA]

11. Your bf/gf is breaking up with you, you tell him/her...
- You Like Karla. Karla Likes You.[Ayeeee! Wag na kasi i-deny! hahahaha]

12. Someone told you you're an asshole, you tell them...
- Fill It To The Rim With Karla. [HOLY FUCKIN SHIIIITTT *no pun intended*]

13. What are the best words to describe you?
- Strong and Beautiful, Just Like Karla. [OhMaigawD *teehee*]

14. If you're going to have a movie about your life, the title is...
- Can't Do It In Real Life? Do It On Karla. [ ;P ]

15. Your last words before you die...
- Melts In Your Karla, Not In Your Hand. [aWh00t!! Famous Last Words, mehn!]

16. Your message to a special someone..
- What Can Karla Do For You? [PFT. Anu akoh? alipin? AS IF!]

17. Title of this post will be...
- Don't Leave Home Without Karla. [YUPZ. Clinically proven, YO!]

whOOt

I'm just posting to say:

I did it.
I passed my ACTG101 prelim exam... in fuckin flying colours no less.
Sorta.
Got an 85.3% .... a SOLID 85.3%

WHAT DO YOU @#$%*@ MEAN IT'S NOT MUCH?!!
IT SURPASSED MAH $#@%# EXPECTATIONS, YOU @$#$%@.

sorta.

LET KARLA HAS HER HAPPY. THIS IS PROLLY THE FIRST AND LAST TIME, ANYWAY.
BAD DEBTS ARE BAAAAAD.

LOL, CAPSLOCK SPAZZZZ.

For the Sake of Posting

I'm throwing away pictures
That i never should have taken in the first place
And it's cold in my apartment
As i'm changing all the colors
From the brightest reds to grays

Well it's 3 o'clock on monday morning
I'm just hoping you're not seeing his face
I've been getting calls in these hotel rooms
Long enough to know that it was him
That took my place

And i hope this makes you happy now
That the flame we had is burning out
And i hope you like your pictures facing down
As even broken hearts may have their doubts

And i'm burning all the letters
Hoping that i might forget her and her bad taste
That she left when she was leaving me
A life of barely breathing as she walked
Out of this place

And you dropped the note and we changed key
You changed yourself and i changed me
I really didn't see us singing through this
Then you screamed the bridge
And i cried the verse
And our chorus came out unrehearsed
And you smiled the whole way through it
I guess maybe that's what's worse

And i hope this makes you happy now
That the flame we had is burning out
And i hope you like your pictures facing down
As even broken hearts may have their doubts

And i'm taking all your memories off the shelf
And i don't need you or anybody else
So take a look at me
See what you want to see
When you get home

Take me home
I'd rather die than be with you
Take me home
You have a problem with the truth
Take me home
Because this happens every time
I knew it would...
I knew it would...

Take me home
I'd rather die than be with you
Take me home
You have a problem with the truth
Take me home
Because this happens every time
And i knew it would...
I knew it would...

And i hope this makes you happy now
That the flame we had is burning out
And i hope you like your pictures facing down
As even broken hearts may have their doubts

And i'm taking all your memories off the shelf
And i don't need you or anybody else
So take a look at me
See what you want to see
When you get home


*sigh* Quite a stressful day.

ACCOUNTING + BAD GRAMMAR + PERSONAL PROBLEMS + KARL MARX + CONFU = ADFSFSAFABSOLUTEC
HAOSADFDFD

Dun dun Dun...

I filched this from Fizza, who ganked it from Mia.
No, as a matter of fact, I don't have anything better to do. Srsly.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Hmm... I guess I'll angst over it for a while. and then get over it. VIDEO GAME THERAPY, YOH. I mean, what else can I do, right? mah friends will take revenge 'coz it'll be less suspicious for the coppers, yes?

2. What will you do if you do not share the same feelings as the person who likes you?
... turn him down, obviously. In the nicest way possible, of course... coz I'm nice... =D
Fizza, wipe that doubtful look off yer mug!

3. What's your take on same-sex relationships?
In true Mia fashion, I'm pro-choice.

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
Uhh... I like pancakes. =D

5. What's your ideal lover like?
I want a rich, smart, hawt guy nd hav his bbys. Truthfully, I don't need 'nice, generous, loving, & sappy sweet'. I need someone who I can jive with. and someone who will give me my space. I'm not like most girls who wants to be texted or IMed every minute of every day. I don't want a guy who will suffocate me with all the 'love'. Fizza, we will really be single till the day we die.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else?
... i think being loved by someone else. 'coz you can do all the taking, right? it may sound selfish, but we all know it's the truth of the matter. I'm not entirely sure, though. *has no experience with this bullshit*

7. If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?
People have jobs to do No, seriously. I don't think I'd waste my time. Especially 'coz I'm not the type na naghahabol. There's more to life than lovelife. I'll get over it.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
How did you know about Jhong and/or Robin? O.O Like Fizz said. What else is there to do?

9. What are you craving for right now?
Nothing... i fail at lyf /wrists

10. What made you unhappy recently?
tfwfvadfwragadfsdfasf.

11. Do you blog a lot?
I guess...

12. What's the best feeling on earth?
Winning. 'nuff said.

13. Aside from God and family, who are the people you consider important?
... well, there's me, that person in the mirror, Karla Patricia a. Veluz I am not self-centred, I swear. Yeah, mah friends of course. ;P

14. What do you think about the person who tagged you ?
I filched dis. LOLZ, Fizza, we really are partners in crime

15. Do you honestly think you act your age?
... I dunno. I think I skipped the whole 'stereotype-teenager' thing where it's all about relationships, and looks, and popularity and stuff.

16. If the person you secretly like cannot recognize you, what would you do/how would you react?
... I like waffles too. =D

17. Would you give your all in a relationship?
That's a resounding 'no'. I believe it's always good to save some for yourself. There's no point in giving your 'all'. 'coz whether we admit it or not, there'll always be a chance that it won't work out with that person. And where does that leave you, then? If you give everything, you might end up with nothing. GAWD, THAT SENTENCE HAS TEH WORST GRAMMAR IN TEH WORLDZZ

18. Who are your favourite famous couples?
... I also like pizza.... =D

19. What type of friends do you like?
I dunno. I don't exactly have a criteria that I carry around in mah pocket and then grade everyone I meet, y'know.

20. Would you risk your friendship just for the sake of telling the one you secretly like that you like him/her?
That's another resounding no. Why ruin a good thing, right?

Ano Sasabihin Mo...

Grabbed from Sherwin

ANO SASABIHIN MO KAPAG SINABI SAYO ITO NG IYONG:

KAIBIGAN:


1. Hoy! wag ka nga masyado mag ingay!
- Maingay ka jan. Kaw nga, eh.

2. Bilihan mo nga ako ng pagkain sa cafeteria.
- Sorry ka. Food square nlng meron.

3. Crush ko yung crush mo ngayon.
- ... okei lng. Lahat naman may crush kay Robin Van Persie. <3

4. Ang boring mo kasama.
- k. magcocomputer nlng akoh. bai.

5.Pakopya naman ng assignment sa math
- sure. para parehas tayong bumagsak. =D


CRUSH

1. Ang cute mo naman.
- hindi koh gagawin homework moh. asa ka pa.

2. Pautang naman.
- I'm broke, damnit. Ur supposed to be a football superstar millionaire.

3. Crush ko yung bestfriend mo.
- Fizza is not interested. and ur supposed to be married.

4. Pwede ba makuha yung cellphone # mo?
- Sure, I'm not gonna text back, though. Too expensive.



ENEMY

1. Mas maganda/gwapo ako sayo!
- ang contact lens ay ginagamit pag malabo na ang mata. sinasabi koh lng.

2. Yuck! Ang baba ng grade mo sa math!
- yeah, that 3.00 is really icky. sarcasm~

3. Ano? sabunutan/suntukan na lang?
- that is SO below me. Face-off nlng sa Samurai Warriors.

4. Ang baduy mo manamit.
- Right. if you want to go against decades-proven fail-safe casual wear (i.e. shirt and jeans) BE MAH GUEST.

5. Kami na ng ex mo.
- have fun with that non-existent person. =D


PARENTS

1. Hindi ka lalabas ng bahay.
- mom, why are you stating the obvious?

2. Hindi ka na makikipagkita sa mga friends mo.
- ... do i get a bigger allowance?

3. Hindi ka na papasok sa school.
- It's because of swine flu, isn't it?

4. Pupunta ka na dito sa America.
- I'm going to live with dad now? I thought we were still working on that? o.o

5. Bakit may love letter ka sa bag?
- ... I wrote it to mahself.

TEACHER

1. Cleaner ka nang 1 month
- di na uso yan, prof!

2. Hindi ka papasok hanggang wala ang parents mo
- what is this, preschool?

3. Mag sa-summer ka.
- ASA. Ibagsak moh muna akoh. At magdala ka ng ebidensya.

4. Bagsak ka sa 2 subjects.
- OBJECTION!!! That is baseless conjecture! Asan ang ebidensya moh?

5. Ililipat kita ng section.
- THAT'S BULLCRAP. Isang block nga lang kami, eh. San moh akoh ililipat?


>> I miss the days when these questions still applied to me. T_T

What Hurts The Most...

NAPASO KOH SARILI KOH SA GLUE GUN. I MEAN PASO AS IN PASO

So now, I'm typing with only...eight fingers. and I'm clicking my mouse with my middle and ring fingers.

I'm totally out of commission right now.

Why am I blogging about this?

BECAUSE IT OBVIOUSLY FUCKING HURTS YOU FUCKIN' MORON. FUCKING SHIT.

Sorry, I'm pain intolerant. Verily so.
But, I swear I saw my life flash before mah eyes. Yeah, I'm a total sissy when I injure my hands... for some odd reason.

If it was my foot I'd be totally okay, I think. O.O


It really fucking hurts. Really.
Imma go be a total emo-priss over it nao. kbai~

and Now For Something Completely Different...

This was posted on the bulletins. I thought it was funny, so I'll share it.

Dear Mr. Bob Ong,
Matagal ko na pong nililigawan itong chik na nakilala ko recently sa isang party. Nasisiraan na ako ng bait. Pag nakilala mo siya, tiyak matutunaw ang utak mo sa kakaisip sa kanya.

Hingi lang po ako ng advice. Paano ko po siya mapapaibig? Bibigyan ko ba siya ng tula ? Haharanahin ko ba siya? Roses? Kalachuchi? Chocnut at sampaguita?
In lab na po ako. Ano po ang gagawin ko? Is she the one?
Lubos na gumagalang,
-MATT -

- ANG REPLY -

Dear MATT,
Hindi ka talaga sasagutin niyang nililigawan mo. Napaka-old school kasi ng mga tactics mo. Wala nang gumagawa ng ganyan. Sa panahon ngayon, lahat ng bagay, nagtaas na. Nagtaas na ang gasolina, nagtaas na ang presyo ng bigas at mga bilihin, nagtaas na ang pamasahe, at lalong nagtaas na rin ng standards ang mga babae. Hindi na uubra yang siopao at suman mo. Lalo na yung huli mong binigay, hopia at santan. Ano ba pare? Ano’ng era ka ba pinanganak?

Pero don’t worry. It’s not too late. May pag-asa ka pa. Hindi pa naman siya kinakasal at di pa niya sinasagot yung crush niya na basketball player. Kahit lamang siya ng sampung paligo sa’yo, daanin mo sa utak at creativity. Dahil aminin na natin, iyon na LANG talaga ang pag-asa mo. Heto, bibigyan kita ng mga simple, tried and tested na mga regalo para di siya mapurga sa hopia at siomai. Sundin mo ‘to, tiyak na lalaglag ang bagang niya sa’yo. Mga medyo more than your usual regalong panligaw:

1. Bili ka ng century tuna. Ilagay mo sa isang napakalaking box—yung sinlaki ng TV o kaya box ng desktop PC mo. Tapos balutan mo ng magarang pambalot. Kuntsabahin mo na yung teacher niya sa Calculus. Sa gitna ng klase, bigla kang kumatok sa classroom. Pero dapat, incognito ka. Magsuot ka ng LBC jacket, magshades, at magsuot ng surgical mask. Pagpasok mo sa classroom, iabot mo yung box sa teacher, at papirmahin mo ng acknowledgement receipt. Tapos pabuksan mo in front of everyone. Tignan mong mabuti ang reaction sa mukha niya.

Later during the day, pag tinanong niya kung bakit Century Tuna ang binigay mo, iikot mo yung lata at ituro mo yung sign na “Omega 8.” Pag tinanong niya kung ano yung Omega 8, sabihin mo: “because you’re good for my heart.”

2. Mangolekta ka ng isang dosenang hanger na libre mong nakukuha tuwing nagpapa-dry clean ka. Tapos, sa bawat hanger, isulat mo: “I miss hanging out with you.”

3. Instead of roses, kuha ka ng tissue paper sa banyo ng school mo. Gawin mong tissue paper roses. Gawa ka ng isang dosena. Pag-abot mo, sabihin mo, “Ganito kalinis ang pag-ibig ko sa’yo.”

4. Bili ka ng tetra pack ng mantikang Minola. Tapos bilugan mo yung “with Omega 8.” Hindi na siya magtatanong kung bakit.

5. Bigyan mo ng ice cream cone. Dapat cone lang at walang ice cream. Pag hinanap niya yung ice cream, sabihin mo, “natunaw na kakatitig sa’yo.”

6. Bili ka ng sandosenang box ng crayola. Kolektahin mo lahat ng black. Lagay mo sa isang box ng crayola. Sa likod, isulat mo: “Walang kulay ang buhay kung wala ka.”

7. Bigyan mo siya ng mumurahing bumbilya. Alam mo na siguro by this time kung ano ang isasagot pag tinanong niya kung bakit.

8. Itext mo siya ng: “Hindi tayo tao, hindi tayo hayop, hindi tayo halaman. Bagay tayo. Bagay!”

9. Bigyan mo siya ng calling card ng MMDA. Sa likod, isulat mo “para pag nagkabanggaan ang puso natin.”

10. Padalhan mo ng Happy Meal pero huwag mong ibibigay yung libreng laruan. Paghinanap niya, sabihin mo: “Ako yung freebie, at ikaw yung meal na nagpapahappy sa’kin.”

11. Sunugin ang kanyang bahay at padalhan ng hallmark card: "aanhin mo pa ang bahay mo, kung matagal ka nang nakatira sa puso ko"

12. Pagkatapos sunugin ang kanyang bahay, padalhan siya ng isang box ng posporo, Guitar brand. unahan ang kanyang galit at sabihin, "ayan ang posporo na ginamit ko sa pagsunog ng iyong bahay, match na tayo"

13. Sa kalagitnaan ng isang malupit na bagyo, pasalubungan sya ng "salbabida", wag payong, o mainit na mami. Pag nagtanong bkt? ang isagot mo ay " ayaw kong malunod ka sa pag mamahal ko."

14. Pag pumayag na siyang makipagdate, dalhin mo siya sa canteen at huwag bibitawan ang kamay. Pag tinanong niya kung bakit, ituro mo yun sign na “don’t leave your valuables unattended”

Handang tumulong lagi,
-Bob Ong-


... but seriously, DON'T BURN HER HOUSE DOWN, K?... srsly.

It makes her feel unsteady...

"tayo ba'y nabubuhay para lang mamatay?"

It's exactly 4:27 in the morning. I can't sleep, that line is stuck in my head.
I decided to continue this quasi-soul-searching thing.

I seriously don't know why I'm doing this. I am more introspective lately since malapit nanaman magpasukan.
I figured that I owe it to myself that when I get back to school, I am somehow wiser than when I left. Kinda like to prove to myself that I DO learn stuff in my own terms.
But I seriously doubt my own theory there. O.O

Anyways, let's get on to business.

Hmmm... let me start by saying that....
Uhhh...

Well this is getting nowhere.

Hmm... I guess it'll be smart to start with my relationship with God.

God for me is... God.
Wow. I'm sorry, I just couldn't decribe that in any other way. Well, I guess God to me is pretty much who God is to everyone else.
The One who created everything. The One who gives us life, The One who gets the gears into motion, etc. etc.

And at the same time, He is my wall, my sword and my pen.

"She said it makes her feel unsteady, without a god to blame..."

My relationship with God (sorry for the redundancy, I just feel uncomfortable referring to God as 'Him'. Y'know, like I would a human male O.O)
Anyways, my relationship with God, I believe is a healthy enough one. At least... it's as healthy as it could get at the moment.
Yes, I admit most of the time I just talk to God when I need or want something, but sometimes I still spare God my time of the day just to talk to Him. (see? It's weird.)
I get angry with God, I get frustrated with Him (ugh. 'kay I'll stop complaining about it now). Sometimes I blame God for things I have no business blaming God for.

And yet somehow.., I find myself still in one piece. I am neither smitten nor prematurely damned. (not that I would know for sure O.O)

Anyways, the point is, if God hasn't removed me from the face of the Earth yet, I must be doing something right.... And then I remember the positive moments of my... moments with God.
This next part sounds REALLY out of character for me, but it's true. You guys all know I'm paranoid about my health, right?
I really am. I think every fever may be fatal for me and I freak out easily. That's why everytime I'm sick I thank God for waking me up, whenever I wake up.
And then unfortunately, after I get better and shit, I go back to my routine of only asking things from God and getting frustrated with Him.

"How many times? How many times before you tire?"

Thinking about this... somehow it freaks me out. I mean, have you ever wondered if/ when God will get tired of "being there for you"? 'Coz, if we're honest with ourselves, He has every right to be.
It freaks me out when I think about when that day might come for me.. if it would come at all.

Now that I've lost my train of thought on that subject. I'd like to hop onto another.

"And she thinks that I'm the one that makes it rain..."

I am one of those people who'd like to think that "God is a scientist." I mean, technically, He's the one that sets all that science into motion, so it would be dumb to think that believing in science is being Atheistic.
But that's just my opinion. So, yes, I believe in evolution (just not exactly Darwin's evolution). And...

I lost my train of thought there too. >.< I need to start taking pills for this.

I'll get back to that later I guess... Hmm... what else would I like to discuss?

Oh yeah. Afterlife.
I try not to think about afterlife too much. i mean, I'm having such a hard time with THIS life as it is.
One thing I don't get though...

I hope no one gets mad at me, but this whole Spiritual Thing looks oddly selfish when you add 'The After Life' into equation.
What do you do? I do good.
Why? So that I can share love and peace to my fellowmen.
Why? So it would please God by doing His will
Why do you need to please God by doing His will? ... so I wouldn't be damned for all eternity. So I could have eternal life in paradise.

See? Everything still boils down to the word "I". In the end, it's still all about you, yourself, and... uhh... you.

"me me me me me me me"

But again, that just my opinion (which is arguably jaded by sleep-deprivation, boredom, and... sleeplessnesss O.O LOL)

Now that we got into that now, I guess it would be safe to dish out another point... our purpose in life.

"tayo ba'y nabubuhay para lang mamatay?"

I know most of us would like to believe we are here for a reason, but I also know that somewhere deep within us there is this voice thst tells us that we're going nowhere and that all of it is for nothing.
To those who are more enlightened than I am, we are supposedly here to live out the purpose given to us by God. And, apparently, all of us here have a purpose. I would hope so.

But what about still-borns who never got a chance to do anything? They didn't even get a chance to be baptized. So, technically, are they out of God's greater scheme of things?
But isn't God the one who kindles a woman to get pregnant? So He must've created that baby for a reason, but why kill him/her so fast? What about that baby's mission?
I'm afraid to type this... but does that mean, that God simply didn't want that child to be part of His greater scheme of things? I mean... if the child was unbaptised, then he/she cannot reside with God in heaven.
So basically, he/she never got a chance...

why?


"tayo ba'y nabubuhay para lang mamatay...?"

Heretical Mementos Pt. 2

So... I really don't know what to write here, but I felt like I had to write something... I guess I'll just make it up as I go.

Yahoo Messenger, 5/25/09, 1:10am

kiNg iCiaN: namimisS ka na ni Lord...^^
kiNg iCiaN: misS na misS pala...^^
Kalii O.o: xP...
Kalii O.o: saka koh na Siya haharapin...
===

That was part of the conversation I had with Ian (wow, special mention ka, cub!) several hours ago.

I dunno... but talking to religious people remind me that I haven't attended Holy Mass in... 3 years? (hindi kasama yung mga ipinilit sa akin school, rawr.) And I haven't talked to God in weeks. Although, the reason I'm not attending mass is completely different from why I'm not talking to The Big Guy at the moment.

Right about now, the devout Christians are covering their mouths in horror and the non-believers are thinking 'and your point is...?' I'll get to that in a second.

First let me say that, contrary to popular belief: I do, in fact believe in God. And yes, God is important to me. So why am I disconnected from God at the moment? ... Yeah, like I'll tell YOU that.

I will, however, tell you the reason why I don't attend Holy Mass. Simply put, I am 'Roman Catholic' by document but I am Anti-religion by heart. Anti-religious, not Atheist. It's NOT the same thing. Like I said, I believe in a God, but I simply cannot find myself believing nor conforming to a specific religion. I have my beliefs on Spiritual mumbo-jumbo and although, I allow them to be changed by the more enlightened individuals, I'd like to stick with what agrees with me.

I don't want any religion to dictate what I should believe and do. I'd like to believe that 'the right thing to do' should be backed up by my judgement, experiences and even ugh my emotions. It SHOULDN'T be dictated by any old book. Any old book which I might remind all of you, does NOT have a 100% precise translation and has been condensed and revised a lot of times already.

I don't mean to offend anyone, but some parts of 'The Scriptures' just come off as twisted to me rather than Holy.

Chapter 33 verse 50 of the Koran:
"O Prophet! Lo! We have made lawful unto thee thy wives unto whom thou hast paid their dowries, and those whom thy right hand possesseth of those whom Allah hath given thee as spoils of war, and the daughters of thine uncle on the father's side and the daughters of thine aunts on the father's side, and the daughters of thine uncles on the mother's side and the daughters of thine aunts on the mother's side who emigrated with thee, and a believing woman if she give herself unto the Prophet and the Prophet desire to ask her in marriage a privilege for thee only, not for the [rest of] believers."

==+ Therefore, the Prophet is given sexual access to first cousins and any believing woman whom he desires to wed. And he is allowed sexual relations to his captives of war... aka RAPE.


Sura 4 (The Women), Verse 92.
4.92: And it does not behoove a believer to kill a believer except by mistake, and whoever kills a believer by mistake, he should free a believing slave, and blood-money should be paid to his people unless they remit it as alms; but if he be from a tribe hostile to you and he is a believer, the freeing of a believing slave (suffices), and if he is from a tribe between whom and you there is a covenant, the blood-money should be paid to his people along with the freeing of a believing slave; but he who cannot find (a slave) should fast for two months successively:

==+So to allah slaves are nothing but a commodity to be traded here and there. Allah sounds like a confederate slave holder. - danielpipes.org

The Bile, Deuteronomy 22:23-24

²³ If a man happens to meet in a town a virgin pledged to be married and he sleeps with her, ²⁴ you shall take both of them to the gate of that town and stone them to death—the girl because she was in a town and did not scream for help, and the man because he violated another man's wife. You must purge the evil from among you.

==+ So technically, if a betrothed woman DOES NOT scream during rape, it is not considered rape and she should be put to death for her sins. Further discussion of this by TruthWalker.

The Bible, Genesis 9:6

Whoso sheddeth man's blood, by man shall his blood be shed.

==+ AKA Capital punishment or Death Penalty.


So why did I post those? Like I said, I didn't mean to offend. My goal is not to besmirch the name of 'Good Books'. My point is that these scriptures which people are supposed to abide in simply do NOT agree with me.
I do not believe that rape, slavery, nor capital punishment is justifiable under nay circumstances and I'm sticking to that.


"The path to God is littered with religion."
- Unlucky Sun

I still have more to say about this, but I'll continue it tomorrow because it's already too long. KBAi~

Less is More

'Kay, so as USUAL, I have a new layout for my blog.
This time I used a light house theme.
and I decided to be minimalistic this time. So all black and white and small, simple fonts. So sorry for those people can't read small texts.

I also didn't give much thought to the image, thus, it is very plain. LIVE WITH IT


LIGHTHOUSE:

For they know your significance. They recognize the mesmerising enigma that is you. You are most beautiful.

And yet...

And yet you are cursed... fated to be alone. Isolated.
At the very end of a treacherous cliff.

And sometimes...

Sometimes you wonder if it would be easier to collapse unto the sea.
Collapse unto destruction... Disappear into meaninglessness.
Oh, sweet relief.

But nay...

You have a purpose that needs fulfilling. A mission...
You are needed to guide those who are lost and those in peril.
For they are so unlike you...they are not alone. And they need to get moving.
To get somewhere.... somewhere they need to be.

So you shine your empty light. Like so many times before.
A bitter aftertaste in your mouth.
As you look longingly into the powerful, destructive sea.

Which for the longest time seemed so welcoming....

Welcoming into her crushing depths. But nay...

You must remain. Remain the mesmerising enigma that is you.
And you must remain to stand on the very edge of a treacherous cliff.

For it is what you need to do.
and it will be your wretched mission...

Until the last flicker within your soul is lost...
Unto the tenebrosity you have craved for since the very beginning...
The darkness that will swallow you at last...

At last...

Freedom.

I am...

This... thing. It scares the hell out of me. It scares me because I feel stupid. And I don't like feeling like a stupid person. I am NOT a stupid person. "Stupid" is pushing my comfort zone. It... scares me. It scares me like CRAP.


It was... spontaneous. It was abrupt.
at first I liked the straight-forwardness.
But the aftershock was overwhelming.
and now I'm just confused and everything is too fast.
Am I still in control? Yes... Yes, I am.
It's was abrupt and... scary.
But I'm in control... I am, I am, I am...
I am not okay...
I am confused... and this... thing is scaring the SHIT out of me.

ARGHHHH

(( This was supposed to be fucking easy ))

Identity, Revamped

So, I changed stuff in my "Personal" page
Here it is in a nutshell:

Let's do this, the slumbook way.



Name: Karla Veluz

Nickname: Karla/ Kale or Kalii to my internet friends

Sex: Female

Age: 17

Birthday: April 24, 1992 and don't you forget it.

Zodiac Sign: Taurus

Location: Asia

Educational Status: University Student

Height: tall enough

Weight: weighing scale=broken

Likes:

♥ Anime & Manga & Bishies & Internet & Graphics Making & Myself & Video Games & Being Lazy & Books & Talking/Arguing with Friends about Deep and Controversial Issues & Books & Balthier ♥


Dislikes:

♠ Bitchy People in General & Getting Sick in General & Slimy Squishy Things & Too Much Schoolwork & Terrible Grammar/Spelling & Code and Graphics Thieves & Bad/No Internet Connection & You & Anything Confusing & Being Broke ♠


Describe yourself: I am the psycho-girl under you bed... lurking... lurking...

Nah kidding.

The 13 (relatively) bad sides of me you need to know about:


* I recently discovered that I'm the kind of person who gets tired of things AND PEOPLE easily. i only want something went I don't/ can't have it. It's harsh, but true.

(BTW, this does not apply to my dearest friends, for I do not and can never own them. I would never tire of them, of course.)
* I'm afraid of commitment. What kind of girl is afraid of commitment?

+ At this rate, I'm never gonna settle down. o.o +

* I enjoy messing with people's minds and I am a smart ass. Sadistic, too.

* I'm sarcastic, but you can't deliver that through the net.

* I am terribly paranoid about my health

* People say I'm good at writing, but I don't like to write that much at all. -blog is proof-

* I hate being in the Philippines. One day, I'm going to make a website or Book entitled: The Psycho Girl's Betrayal to the Filipino Race.

* I play Neopets and Mobster at the same time. IDK, but I think I'm breaking some kind of rule here.

* I AM NOT A GOOD GIRL... maybe just a little. More than a little.

* My life is totally out of track right now. I'm taking a course I don't like; in a University I don't like; with people... who can never be as close to me as they/I would want. I'm sorry.

* I hate stupid people. It's prideous, but that's how it is.

* God, Church, the Bible... they're all a blur to me right now. I just... don't know.

* I don't drink (( no longer applies T.T )). I don't smoke. I don't fuck. I don't do drugs. I could be straight edge if only I didn't hate that term.

Heretical Mementos

"Stop using my name in vain, goddamnit!"

-GOD

Masama ba isipin na may sense of humor ang Diyos? Bakit naman? Ano masama dun? So masama ang sense of humor? Lahat ng taong may sense of humor pupuntang hell? Ganun ba yun?

===

I conjured that up when I was trying to think up a witty message that I could GM (group message) to my friends and blockmates. At first I was supposed to just send the quotation. But then I thought about my spiritually devoted blockmates (one of which is a son of a Pastor). I knew they would disapprove of the message. It is after all blasphemous (to most people at least. Not to me.) So... my overly introspective mind summoned up the second paragraph. I know that most of my classmates would still disapprove. I don't care, though. That piece of the message was meant to get people to think as well as to defend myself and my strange beliefs. If at least one person thinks about it, then my mission is accomplished.

Most religions or rather, religious people *ehem*Christians*ehem* have the power to puzzle and amuse me at the same time. And most of the time, it's not even about the rituals and traditions; although most of those are really, REALLY strange. What clogs my brain is the constant and absolute confidence in those people that their description of "God" is 100% correct. That "God is good all the time" thing that has become the finishing line on every inspirational story out there. People think that "God is good all the time" and yet they also believe in the "Wrath of God". DON'T. Don't tell me they don't. if they didn't, the term "God-fearing" would never have been listed in the book of good traits. God is good, but he occasionally smites sinners (which could be any of us, BTW, since we're ALL sinners.). Don't you just feel the constant and undying love<3?... Another thing is the constant fighting with science because it 'contradicts' the Bible and stuff. IT'S SCIENCE PEOPLE! IT HAS PHYSICAL PROOF! And a wise professor once told me "God will never contradict himself." I'm just saying, there's no use denying it.

I'd rather withhold my idea of how I view God's "moods" (wrath, love, wrath, love, dice, dice, dice). I'd rather believe that God actually did make the dinosaurs, he actually DESIGNED EVOLUTION so His creations would last longer (less maintenance, y'know). I don't know why there's anything wrong with believing in that. I mean, other than the fact that it contradicts the Bible; and that's fine with me, actually. Also, I believe God gave humans brains so they would find answers. So I absolutely despise the term "Ganyan talaga" and "Diyos na lang siguro makakaalam". If we have the time, the brains, we should try to figure things out. The more we figure things out the less questions there are. The less questions, the less spite between beliefs. Less spite, less war. Yes, LESS WAR. So go on, say it. Say it. Tell me that God doesn't want us to find answers. C'mon.

I guess all my opinions can never be stored in one blog post. So I guess I'll close here. I remember my block mate (the Pastor's son) saying that the stuff happening to the Earth right now is extremely comparable to the prophecy on the Book of Revelations. If that is true and the end truly is near after all, then I must be given the illest of Fates. To live and question the belief of Christians, of the Church; to have my own ideas on God, to be a confused and lost sheep at a time like this. When there is no time... I tell you, the idea of such adversity scares me, but I believe it's no better to live on blind faith. Through distorted vision I may find my way after all, but if I am blind then I might end up foolishly clutching on false hope woven by the 'religious veterans'.

A Kid Pretending to be a Childish Adult

Okay, this post is in NO WAY influenced by Rizza. Me and Rizza influencing each other? Pft. Have you read about her preferred boy-toy? I didn't know we were so... different.

Haha, anyways... so yeah, maybe this was brought about by one of Rizza (the dolphin annihilator)'s post. Here's a good question:

How mature am I?

I'd like to think I'm pretty mature. A little while back I thought FOR SURE I'm more mature than most people my age- whether it's about money, humor, studies, sex, moralities, and some other shit. But lately, I've been a bit confused. Am I really mature? Or do I just think differently?

Obviously, there's a big difference there. Maybe I'm not any higher than anyone else on the scale, rather, I'm just on a different platform. Not higher, just different. And to be honest... that kind of reality bites.

And so I present my "My reality vs. the Truth" narrative.

Money. I'd like to think that I handle myself well when it comes to monetary issues. I mean, I'm pretty practical. I can be stingy, yes, but not just because my situation demands stingyness. So yeah, we're poor. I think that my ability to close my fist so that the little coins don't fall is pretty mature. I mean, I know some people who don't appreciate the true value of money. They think money grows on trees. FYI, money is made of special cotton. Cotton is grass you imbeciles. I think. anyways, that was beside the point. I think that spending money just because you can is immature. I mean, you people are likely to say "you're just 'matipid' cause you have to be. You'd be a spender too, if you had the choice."

Actually, this isn't true. We weren't always this poor, we could provide for ourselves just fine back then; but I was just as good as saving money before as I am now. (Someone please fix that last sentence. It lost some of it's kick 'coz of bad grammar. TY) Bottomline: I know the value of money. Not just the literal kind. The "my-dad-had-to-shed-tears-and-sweat-and-blood-for-this" kind of value.

"The Truth" throws back at me: Materialism.
Okay, so I found out that some people think that materialism is immature...

My mom suddenly told me to go to sleep. I just found out that it is 10 mins past midnight and I have school in the morning. I'll leave this a cliffhanger for now. Ciao

Dream Guy Shit

Okay, so I was browsing through bulletins in Friendster and I stumbled upon this Dream Guy thingy... it's mostly shit, though... I was bored so I answered it anyway.

But as I read and re-read it I ask myself... what the hell is wrong with me?!

Ang [magiging] BF/GF mo b dpat ano?
(be honest)

1.Dapat ba gwapo/maganda?
* Yes, it sounds shallow, but that's how it is.

2.Matalino?
* Yes. absolutely

3.Preferred Age?
* 4,5 years older

4.Preferred Height?
* 5'8"... more or less.

5.How about sense of humor?
* ...considering my version of 'humor' is not exactly normal... It's not a major requirememnt. =D

6.How about piercings?
* I guess. I don't want to be walking around with a huge hunk of metal, though. LOL.

7. Mushy or not?
* EW. No. Sorry, I can't stand anything sappy.

8.Thin or Fat?
* katawan ng swimmer =3

9. dimples?
* i don't exactly care...

10.Morena/o or Chinita/o or
Mestisa/o?
* ... whatever. Chinito = NO

12.Long Hair or Short Hair?
* Short. Neat. Clean. Preferably.

13.Smells good?
* YES. MAJOR BONUS POINTS.

14.Smoker?
* Nope. I don't really care all that much, though. If he brushes obsessively and doesn't smoke around me.

15.Drinker?
* Social drinking, yes. Drunkard, HELL NO.

16.boy/girl-next-door type?
* The more unique the better.

17.musically inclined?
*thinks about Jhong Yeah, sure... whatever.

18.Plays Guitar?
* don't care

19.Piano?
* yeah... pero pwede rin hindi

21.Sings very good?
* ... don't care

22.vain?
* Eeehh...no. Lalo na kung talo pa niya akoh sa kaartehan. Which doesn't take much, srsly.

23.With Glasses?
* yeah, sure. Why not?

24. With Braces?
* ...depends. If it impaires his speaking abilities, it's kind of a turn off.

25.Shy type?
* why not?...

26. from what school?
* University. Some prestigious, international shit. LOL

27.Active or Passive?
* Passive

28.Sporty?
* No Basketball crap.

29.Singer or dancer?
* ...I don't really give a shit.

30.suplada/suplado?
* pag sa iba lang naman, I don't really care. ha! that sounds SOOO bitchy.

31.hiphop?
* music preference? Sure. Style of clothing? NO. I don't like oversized pants. LOL

32.earrings?
* Yeah, why not?

33.hard to get?
* hindi akoh yung klase na naghahabol

34.mr or ms count-my-ex-till-u-drop?
* Uhhh... that's a resounding no. Buut, I wouldn't want to be his first girlfriend. it sounds weird, but I want at least one of us to know what he's doing. O.O

35. bookworm?
* By all means, YES. MAJOR BONUS POINTS. Especially if he'll lend me his books. books are expensive, damnit

39. mr./ms love letter?
* What did I say about sappy stuff?

40. may goatee?
* ... I've considered it... why not, right? Kung bagay naman sa kanya

41. flirt?
* Flirt as in he flirts a lot with others or he just likes flirting with me? O.o

42.poem writer?
* SAPPEH

43.serious?
* Yes.

44. galante?
* Yeah, I guess so. Ayoko lang ng masyadong magastos. Especially if it's over nothing.

45.campus crush?
* Ehh...

45.painter?
* ... don't care.

46.religious?
* Pft. Magaaway lang kami. wag na.

47.alaskador/a?
* Sarcastic? YES. Mapanlait? NO.

48.computer games geek/internet
freak?
* Kung kaya niya lagyan ng WiFi yung cellphone kong bulok, then by all means YES

49.speaks 20 languages?
* Yeah, pero hindi major requirement. Bonus points lang. =D

50. Loyal o faithful?
* Is there a difference? Both.

*shrugs* eeehh... I was sleepy when I answered this.


EDIT I edited it 'coz I felt like it...

What Do You Do?

What do you do when you're surrounded by sentimental, mushy crap?

I meant "crap" in the most affectionate way possible.
Okay so, issue is... most of the people surrounding me now ( I'm a college STUDENT, go figure it out, genius.) are a bunch of hopeless romantics. The "love is the center of the universe", boy-hunting, "zOMG, all we need is love" kind (and yes, I AM exaggerating). I mean they say they miss each other after a DAY of absence. What is up with that? I mean sure, you love each other, and every other thing that breathes I don't judge. I guess, there's nothing really wrong with that. But it doesn't change the fact that I am just not used to that shit. When they say "aw, miss u" or " I'm so glad you're my friend" I just don't know what to say to that: "Yeah. Uhh... ttly."

Srsly, name ONE time I told Jizza I loved her. Oh gawd, just typing it feels weird.
I told Mia I was proud of her ONCE. That was when I thought she could use the positive reinforcement from me. It was a "now or never" moment. Bianxie... we're a lot more... showy, but not even half close when compared to my present peoplezz.

I'd say it's time for change... I'm not gonna tell anyone I missed them JUST after they went to the bathroom. Not anytime soon. Maybe not at all. Still...the affirmation feels kinda good... although it feels a lot more awkward than anything right now. I'm gonna give this thing a try.

What do you do when you're surrounded by liars? (or so you think)

Okay so there's this little... feud... in this little... place.

The standard "Nagbago siya" issue which became a lot more complicated as it went along.

NO, NO DETAILS FOR YOU!!!

I'm not gonna spill anything, geez. There are people who trust me. May the God above have mercy on their souls.

Technically, stuff were said (will be said), stuff were done and where does that leave us? I'm not directly involved but I am involved still. I think the root of this problem is the ever consistent-ubiquitous desire to impress people. I'm not just saying this, I have proof.
NO, NO DETAILS FOR YOU!!! Anyway, if "this person" wasn't trying SO HARD to make his/her life so interesting, this wouldn't have happened. It's kinda reminiscent of highschool.... YOU KNOW WHO I'M TALKING ABOUT.

So what do you do if there's a liar amidst? Normally, I love to embarrass liars. Pushing them to a corner until there's no other choice but to spill their guts out I'm not a mind-rapist... you just think I am. Buuuuut, I think this time, I'd say veto the persecution bill. Ignore... stuff. Appear uninterested no matter how astounding his/her story is (if it were true). He/she will soon realize that he/she will be boring no matter what and will give up eventually... then the closure will come afterwards...


Remind me again why I'm not taking a psychology course??

Potato, Potato

Ehhh.... I thought I just needed to say this...

Light won the "The Most Epic Eating Of Potato Chips" award on Anime Insider: Best of 2008

O.O Yeah, I know it's weird...

...

In commemoration of Potato-Chips-Eating-Raito, I offer this:

If GH stands for P as in Hiccough

If OUGH stands for O as in Dough

If PHTH stands for T as in Phthisis

If EIGH stands for A as in Neighbour

If TTE stands for T as in Gazette

If EAU stands for O as in Plateau


The right way to spell POTATO shoud be GHOUGHPHTHEIGHTTEEAU!